Monday, October 06, 2008
{ 5:10 AM }
i'm a soon-to-be retainee of mjc. is this a piece of good news? i feel like it's the end of the world.
reason why being a retainee is not good:
#1 seperated from my class friends like thendral and yinmei
#2 have to quit council meaning i'll have to leave my council friends
#3 must get used to a new group of people and maybe a new environment (cca)
#4 teacher may pick on you
#5 ego problem because you're now studying with people younger than you so you feel a lot more inferior
#6 there's a higher chance of me getting kicked out of the school for not doing well at the end of my second promo next year and then end up in no where (no school at all).
#7 my mother will be more worried for me and my future and be more stringent towards me and everything i will do.
#8 get nagged at (keep on reminding me about how stupid i am) whenever i do something wrong (even if it doesn't concern my studies at all)
#9 i'll be even further away from you
but really, why should i feel like that? actually getting retained isn't that bad after all.
reason why being a retainee is good:
#1 get to make new friends
#2 get to start all over again including choosing my subjects, ccas and learning of the A levels cirricular
#3 since i have already learnt whatever i am going to learn again, i should understand everything better and do much better than how i just did
#4 can work on my foundation so i have a stronger foundation for the important exam
#5 i won't feel the stress when my ex peers are preparing for their A levels
#6 get to enjoy myself when my ex peers are busy mugging their ass off for their many mini tests or major block test.
well, people are coping with this well why can't i do the same too? i am sure i can do it and i'll do it much better. but, i don't want to waste just another year repeating the same old thing. i want to move on. i don't want to waste my parents' money. oh god, please just let me get promoted. or advance at worse..
things i'll do if i get promoted:
#1 spend my holidays revising all that have been covered throughout the year
#2 do more practice questions
#3 clarify any doubts i have with any subjects especially physics
#4 read both my literature texts
please god, let me get promoted. i want to mug my ass of with my friends next year.